Hayuwardhani

To the souls who wanna stop struggling Here's a few things I gotta say The path you've taken The tears you've cried The time you've spent The energy you've lost The hearts you've broke The money you've spent The hopes you've hung Mean nothing If you keep telling yourself, "I am about to quit". Your destination Is now a step away, So right in front of your nose That you actually can see Even with your eyes closed. To the souls who wanna stop struggling Here's something I gotta tell y'all You're one of a kind Who is destined to reach your destination With your own way.

"Sooner or later, you will be 25. You will get married by 25, with the one you choose", said my grandma. Honestly, I am afraid everytime I remember about what my grandma said. If you think that I am afraid of getting married, no. I am not afraid of getting married or stuffs. I am just afraid of how time changes so fast like Marc Marquez rides his motorbike. I should not be afraid of it, but it is difficult. Knowing that 3 years from now on, I will be in my 25--25 is seen to be the mature age of a woman. I am not yet prepared enough for this. It is not about not being able to accept the fact that you get older, in fact everyday we get older. However, it is about how much I've prepared for being 25. I am the only person who really knows about myself, than anyone else, even my parents. I know my strengths, and, of course, understand about my weaknesses. I know how many miles I have to go through. I know exactly how many times I failed in Math and building romance,

When I was a teenager, I used to dream that I could get married at the age of 20 and hold a fancy wedding party in a grand ballroom of a five-star hotel where I could share so-called my happiness as a bride. I was so unrealistic back then, why? I never thought that getting married was as not simple as browsing Melania Trump's newest fashion stuffs on the internet, of course when you have 4G internet access. As I was entering the 21st year of my existence in this world, I often did a lot of so-called "deep thinking". I know it may be hyperbolic, but yes it is true. I did think deeply, metaphorically. I thought a lot of things about life, reflected every single silly thing that I did in the past--and laughed at it, and tried to keep it in my mind so that I won't do the same mistakes in the future. One of the things that I thought at that time was about "marriage". I used to think that marriage was just as a commitment to be together in good times and bad t